by Ankit Keneth Lall
(Agra, U.P.,India)
by Maeve
(Brisbane)
Thank you for the article on self forgiveness.
I've only just come to the place where I see it is needful to accept God's forgiveness. And I can hardly see it even now.
I stumbled ones of God's little ones many years ago and just now see that I have not been able to accept God's forgiveness because I am so angry with myself;
regrets do nothing,
tears have no healing power,
there is no way to undo it.
I see exactly what Jesus meant when He said it is better that the stumbler be drowned than for the stumbling to happen.
I'd always seen it as how angry He is with the stumbler (me), but now I realize He was just speaking a hard fact.
I've often felt it would have been better for me to have died than to have stumbled those little ones and still believed He was angry with me yet.
The rest of the hard fact is that not having died beforehand, I did stumble them and at least two of them are living with the damage done them to this day. I don't know where the other one is but if she has not forgiven me, they are still stumbled.
Today I've cried yet more tears and through them I've heard the voice of the Father telling me I am forgiven and that if I'll receive it, I'll know what it means to be forgiven.
The most important thing though is that I'll be able to have compassion on those who are abusers and don't know why or how to stop being that.
I feel I must clarify that my abuse was NOT sexual. Perhaps because that is what the abusers did to me, I don't know.
But there is far more to abuse than whether it is sexual or not. And so the clarification does nothing to diminish my abuse of those little ones.
I've printed off your page of the prayer for self-forgiveness and intend to use it before the Father to pave the way to full understanding of what it means to be forgiven for even this stumbling.
May God use what He is teaching me to help others!!
Note from a-spiritual-journey-of-healing.com
Thank you so much for this heartfelt letter and for the work you are doing to let God forgive you, to let the awareness of his forgiveness sink deep into your heart.
In terms of the world, I have been more on the victim side than the abuser.
There were those who took the decision to leave me without enough to eat...some did so for many years.
Or shouted at me as I lay in bed unable to move or talk back.
The effects were physical and emotional.
On behalf of God, can I say that “I forgive you.”
Can I tell you that I would be so grateful to these people if they worked on self forgiveness?
If they did so they would be able to say sorry and to allow me to feel my feelings around the issue.
At the moment, I must allow these feelings for myself. That is my responsibility and I will do so.
But to forgive when someone is sorry is so much easier!
You of all people know that by receiving self forgiveness and God’s forgiveness you are not denying what happened. Quite the opposite.
Do you know the 10 steps program of AA and other addictions. One of the steps is to, where possible, tell someone that we are sorry. I wonder if that is possible for you to do.
If you can't do it in person, or feel it would be harder for the person if you did so, then write them a letter saying sorry. You will know whether it is best to send it physically or simply send it out as a blessing to the person.
For example:
A Letter To Someone You Have Hurt
I am so sorry I hurt you.
I worry that you are living with the effects of what I did or said.
I really want you to heal from what I did.
I know I cannot undo the past, but is there some way I can help?
Is there anything I can say now that would help you find peace with what I did.
Is there any guilt or shame you took on from my actions that I can help you to let go of?
Is there anything you need permission to see or hear or feel that I made it hard for you to see or hear or feel at the time?
I do not expect you to reply to this.
I want you to do what is most helpful for you.
But if you need to explain how it felt, I will listen.
If you need to yell, I will listen.
If you want to meet up for a certain number of times I will be with you through the process.
Thank you again for writing to the site. You have not included your email, so I do not know if you will come and see this, but I send it out as a blessing to you.
Have you read my FREE ebook available on this site– The Release – Forgiveness Exercises for Self Acceptance and Inner Peace. If not, please do read it and release on all that you believe you have done.
If you can't release judgement on yourself then practise the release on those who abused you.
As we forgive, we are forgiven.
Remember, Paul in the Bible was one who had persecuted and killed the early Christians and went on to receive the revelation of Christ and help found the church. We can all be forgiven.
You are a new creation in Christ Jesus.
And yes, God will and is using you.
With the Love we all are,
Katherine
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